spiritual integration

Dancing The Wild Dance Of YOUR Life

Dancing The Wild Dance Of YOUR Life

We live in a time that requires us to step into all change that beckons us–with fullness and totality. Whatever Spirit is calling us into is needed on not just a micro-level, but on a macro-level as well. Sometimes it may seem […]

Opening the Doors

Opening the Doors

It is time to open the door. Reach out your hand and pull the handle, no matter how splintery or heavy it is–and open the door. Pull open the door, even if you have done it a million times: Open the door once more, fresh and clarified. Open the door to what you have […]

Who Are You Without Your Script?

Who Are You Without Your Script?

Are you aware of your script? What are the words that declaim your most certain of challenges? "I have no time." "I never get it right." "No matter what I do, it's never good enough." "They always […]

A Cage Called Freedom

A Cage Called Freedom

Something very tricky that comes up again and again in spiritual "ways" is a misunderstanding about freedom. Freedom doesn't come from choosing to not be in relationship, or from not having a 9-5 job, or from traveling from place to place and not having one home, or from cutting yourself off from your family. Whenever freedom has conditions or any lack of unconditionality, it is a cage. Freedom is contextual NEVER-percent of the time.

Looking Through the Window Pane

Sometimes, we see life right before our eyes, but there's a glass pane between us and that certainty of oneness. In moments like this, we doubt our creative abilities, we doubt how much we can handle [...]

The Misunderstanding of Obligation and Putting Others Before Yourself

The Misunderstanding of Obligation and Putting Others Before Yourself

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO, AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU. What we all need to care about is what we feel [...]

Inspired to RELAX, Inspired to BE

I’m inspired to be. I am the inspiration of restfulness. Inspiration is not meant to equate to doing.

Do you ever feel like you have to do it all on your own?

Like there just isn't enough energy and inspiration within you to get it all done or to make some good magic with your life?

I know exactly what you mean.

After recently experiencing the joy of receiving an amazing book offer, and going forward with that relationship, I have been faced with not only the enchantment and wonderfulness of all of that, but also the strong feeling of oh shit, now what? While the answer may seem obvious, (now what=edit, share more, put yourself out there), the "now whats" that we often feel do not arise out of a stupor of not knowing "what to do," but rather from the energetic plateau we meet again and again throughout or lives where doing feels contrived or inspiration feels blocked.

Now what? can be daunting when the energy is not there for a participation in whatever is happening, particularly when you think it should be. How many times in your life have you attempted to muster up the energy for this or that because you thought you "should" or because you believed you "needed to," only to feel more exhausted and out-of-touch as a result? We all know what that is like.

When we have expectations about how we should feel or what should be happening, and we get on that bandwagon of actually believing those expectations, then we are in for quite the ride. Why? A few reasons. First off, although we know what is best for us in the innermost sense, we do not know how that is meant to manifest. In other words, it may be your dharma and your truth to focus your energy on this or that project, but you may need to rest this week and focus on your inner world in order to really be able to show up in all of your power and glory. There might be the most amazing, perfect event happening on Thursday night, but if your spirit is saying stay home or I need to be in solitude, then to go to that event on Thursday night is to pull yourself out of alignment and, believe it or not, actually delay you in living out the most aligned unfolding. Whoever you thought you'd meet at that event, well, you probably would not meet the most ideal match for you; rather, you'd actually meet that harmonic match naturally, like walking to get a cup of coffee the next morning after a good night to yourself.

If you just stayed in on Thursday night, perhaps meditated or took a warm bath and just let yourself be, who knows? Perhaps, in that deep relaxation, the perfect next step would arise. The divine inspiration would swirl through your being upon you finally having space to let go. When we let go and let God, the possibilities are truly endless!

We are never goin' it alone. When we start to feel that way, it is a signal that we need to rest and remember. We are putting too much pressure on ourselves to do or to be something we are not or to fill out imagined shoes of who we think we need to become. It's all a trip and it's just a trip to take you home. Within yourself. At peace, and giving space for God to rush through your being and light up your cells. Divine inspiration always comes in divine timing. That's just the way it is.

As for me, I am drinking my own medicine. The past week included a few challenges and plenty of tears, and I did my best to let each tear clean the lens of the flashlight so that I may peer inside and see more clearly. So that I may help liberate whatever needs liberating. By resting into each moment and staying clear-eyed for what I am being shown, I know the way is cleared for inspiration to have the space to rise, and that is the best I can do. And that is enough. In the end, it's all one big opportunity to see more, clear more, love more and be more...which really just means: see, clear, love, be... there is no more when we are with these aspects of being.

Furthermore, I realize that I am, actually inspired right now: I'm inspired to be. I am the inspiration of restfulness. Inspiration is not meant to equate to doing.

So remember, there is no "should." We feel how we feel, and that is that. How we feel is never right and never wrong. How we feel benefits not from our judgement, but from our listening. When we slow down and move deeper within, past the details of what it all seems to be about, and listen to what our being is actually saying... we fall into alignment, we fall into grace, and we remember our divine place.

Let yourself be... let go of the pressure. Everything happens in its time and we have no idea what that actually is. Keep listening to yourself carefully and with love, and all is then as aligned as it can be.

 

 

Honoring Your Humanity and Embodying Divinity at the Same Time

How can I experience my feelings and emotions and at the same time, be in my divinity, my highest truth? Don’t the two contradict each other?

The duality this possibility presents can be challenging for many. How can I dive into my feelings in all the rawness of their corners and simultaneously embody my divinity, my deeper truth? Doesn't the act of going into the feelings take me away from the truth, from the stillness, and deeper into duality?

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In the deep dive of feeling, potent treasures of wisdom await. It takes great courage to explore the mysterious, powerful ocean of feeling, and there is much insight to receive. Each emotional experience is there to open you, to clear spaces that are tight, that are in resistance, so they may melt back into receptive spaces for love.

Emotions carry the essence of water, and like water, they move through spaces and push through barriers on their way. Consider it like this: when something happens and a trigger arrives and feelings erupt, it is like a big waving flag that says "dig here." Dig here to see where you are still stuck, where you need more acceptance. It is an invitation to salvation.

The recipe here includes surrender and detachment. You can feel the fullness of what is happening without attaching to it or identifying with it. Letting it flow through you is purity. When the mind comes in, you move into illusion. It is the resistance and analysis that moves you away from truth because then, you are no longer witnessing. Then, you are in identification, fear and scrutiny.

The divinity is in accepting whatever thoughts, feelings, and beliefs may come, without analysis and attachment. It comes when you let the mystery take over, when you let yourself become one with this ocean and allow it show you what it needs to show you. As far as I can know, it is impossible for the mind to reveal spiritual truth. Feeling, however, can trigger the remembrance of truth. It can inspire the awareness that you are to realize or remember truth. So just let the experience be the meditation it is meant to be.

The key to remaining in truth is in watching to make sure you remain out of identification with any stories, beliefs or thoughts that may have brought you to this moment, and with the feelings themselves. The key is in surrender, in letting go, in letting what is coming to come and eventually, to pass. This is the embodiment of divinity: being aware that all in front of you is here for your growth and wisdom, and not denying that which is natural for you, (in this case: an eruption of feeling). You are not these feelings that are passing, (nor are they "yours"), you are simply that which witnesses their song. Feel them with an openness to learn from their poetry. Allow what is coming to come and pass, greet them with your open arms.

When your are resting as the awareness that you are, how could you be anything but the embodiment of divinity?  The ultimate "spiritual goal," (if there was one), is not to transcend feelings and emotion or treat them like unmanageable ego-consequences that must go. Imagine how uninspiring life would be! How dead! You, like all the planets, plants and creatures on this Earth, are here to grow and evolve. Emotional experiences are often catalysts for great transformation and on their lighter side, they are sweet songs that caress and delight our souls.

Celebrate your humanness with awareness and patience, and watch everything fall into place as you open evermore, evermore, evermore.

 

The Essence of Pain

The Essence of Pain

In the past, I had an undeniable experience of miracle healing. Six years ago, I had really hurt my foot and could hardly walk. I was [...]

Triggering Others & Realizing the Reflection

The story, the details, the projection are all just a vehicle to get you to this moment of clarity and unraveling.

You know the feeling; you’re in the kitchen in the morning with someone you are sharing space with: your roommate, your mother, your best friend that you’re visiting. The morning’s only just started, and yet you can sense something is off. A story has been brewing.

You woke up to the sounds of water blasting from the kitchen faucet in high volume, nice and loud, even though it’s 6:45am and you’re meditating in the living room, where you sleep. But there’s something about the way that water is on high today, you can feel a bit of resentment already. You get up, go to the kitchen where your friend is, and notice only your dishes remain in the sink from the night before. So you clean them, and clean the kitchen counter from the remains of her smoothie-making, as a gesture to help melt whatever is bubbling within the person who, (like it or not), you either love or have at least chosen, (whether consciously or subconsciously), to be around in this moment.

A bit of gentle morning talk, and you can feel the tension in their voice.

And this brings us to: is this yours or theirs or both? What do we do when we realize we have either triggered or contributed to triggering someone?

To the first question, if you are like me, then you believe that everything in your holographic reality that you experience you have called in, (you have invited), in one way or another. You take full responsibility for what shows up in front of you.

So is it yours? The story above is a prototype. You cannot tell by the details whose what is. Every being is unique, every relationship has its own energies. So look closely, feel into it, and if you are the sort of person who is really willing to work through your stuff no matter how uncomfortable that may be, then trust what your intuition, (NOT your mind), tells you. The story will never matter at all. All that matters is what is coming up for you, as this shows you what is unresolved within you at the moment, or what needs nurturing and love. Focus only on that.

The story, the details, the projection are all just a vehicle to get you to that. Sometimes it’s just there to show you that this situation or relationship is no longer right for you, and that essence in and of itself is enough, and contains enough words. So listen closely and simply.

Through the process, feel into the truth that life is not about being right or wrong. If you’re getting hung up on that, you are looking in the wrong place. For as long as you need to be right, you will suffer. Quiet down and melt into your heart. Be forgiving and loving towards yourself, for it is from this gentle space that realize the truth… that it is always safe to look within.

Hopefully, when you do look inside, you will realize the aspect of you that is responsible for calling this into your reality. For me, it is the consequence of choosing to temporarily live with others who have a different flow than me. I’m often reclusive, quiet, not very social, like my personal space, and always… always follow my energy wherever that takes me, even if that means upstairs to read in the middle of a roommate’s party. This is my religion, always honoring what feels best to me without judging, analyzing, or questioning myself. That can be hard for others to see who are not able to do that just yet, or who are not able to always know exactly what they need.

We are mirrors to others, and we must be compassionate about that. What we see in the other is a reflection of our inner world, of what we wish we had, of what we wish we didn’t have, and so on. But it’s all inside of us, always, and when we come into deeper acceptance of that, and meet that with peace, life becomes a much easier and sweeter. The story begins to dissolve.

When you realize you have triggered someone, carefully feel into whether or not it needs to be addressed. Not EVERYTHING needs to be discussed. The art of knowing is knowing what to ignore, wrote Rumi. Sometimes the other just needs a bit of space to let the twinge dissolve, and many people know how to work that out on their own and know that they’re running a story that truly has nothing to do with you. So feel into it carefully. Be the gentleness and the softness that rests in the peace of your heart.

If you’re not able to do that and you’re triggered as well, then take your space. Don’t react. Don’t give your power away to the situation, which is an illusion you’re projecting to show you the web of your mind; which, upon seeing, you have the opportunity to melt. So take your space. Meditate, run, rock climb, go to yoga class… whatever your thing is. Take space from the story too: forget about it for a while if it feels unclear. And then, when you’re ready to, feel about it, don’t “think” about it.

It is simpler than it sounds: feel what emotions or frustrations it is bringing up for you: no one understands me, this makes me feel disconnected, no matter how hard I try this always happens, whatever it is. Be honest and go deep; it’s worth it… the deeper you go, the better chance you have of supporting this in resolving, so that eventually, (maybe today! if you’re ready), this pattern/feeling within you weakens to the point of dissolution. It doesn’t need to be intense for it to be “deep,” and if it is, that’s okay too. Just go there, and you’ll realize it’s much more liberating than you may have realized.

Once you’re clear, if the air between you and your friend hasn’t cleared still and you feel it is best to initiate a chat, then gently feel into the moment that feels supportive of that. Don’t rush, but also don’t be afraid as then you may miss the boat. So stay clear, stay centered in yourself and wait for that silent invitation to bring it up. If you stay in a space of love and non-judgment within yourself, your friend will feel that and the environment will be much more welcoming and safe. You don’t want to “fight” the other person, for the only person you can truly fight is yourself. (Meaning whenever you think you are fighting the other, you are really only hurting yourself and dealing with something you do not accept within yourself.)

When you share with the other, don’t focus on the details of the story. Tell him or her gently what *you* are feeling, what you are observing etc. Have no expectations about what he or she will say, and give them the freedom and respect to express what is true to them. Like it or not, there really is no “right” or “wrong.” Wherever your friend is in this moment is perfect for their life journey. Remember, people treat others as they treat themselves, so you are constantly getting glimpses into the other’s inner world. Have compassion, as many people are quite hard on themselves. When that translates as them being hard on you, realize deeply that it’s not personal, and have compassion that this is where they are with themselves. Hold your boundaries with gentleness and love, and know you are never obligated to accept any words from others that do not come from a space of love and clarity.

And accept that you may trigger others sometimes! That is okay. The other is seeing something within themselves that they resolve. If it gets to the point where your boundaries are being crossed, where you feel hurt etc, again, just look within yourself to see why you invited this particular expression/behavior and what you need to learn. The sooner you learn it, the sooner it dissolves. :)

Enjoy and love each other, and never ever forget: that always starts with loving yourself.

**What did I learn in this situation/moment?**

I attracted this moment and manifested this situation into my life to more deeply learn about compassion and timing. I intentionally chose to live with someone, (an amazing girl), whose harmony of life includes having many people around and many activities going on… energies that in some moments are distracting from what’s really going on inside. Being empathic and clairvoyant, I often see where others hold themselves back.  And it can be hard for me to see where others aren’t being, or able to be, honest/brave/”ready” etc. with themselves, because I have a deep wish for everyone to be free now. (See that? because of ME, because of my wishes and inspiration…. not because of her.) The reflection shows itself to me through others time and time again because this is what my inspiration is, helping others realize their empowerment. It is my motivating force and these constant reflections fuel my soul’s journey.

The truth is that everything the other is doing is THEIR way to freedom, no matter if that’s heroin nightly or the hardest situation imaginable or staring at the sky all day long, (which is really quite lovely). That’s their right and it’s their soul journey. Freedom lies in the essence of everything, and it is precisely these moments, ~every present moment~, that pave the way & holds the keys to liberation for all.

Focus on you.

Love,

Tehya